Monday, December 27, 2010

Sleepless Night

Goshhhh... its 5am in the morning and i still can't get into sleep... aikzzzz...
yet, my baby sleeping sweetly in my Bed LOL!! "Serious Sweet" !! LOL...

There's lots of lots of things running inside my mind...
some point i was happy, some point i was sad..
some things sparked me motivated, some things made me de-motivated..

Mainly because of Am not satisfied with my current situation and what i have done for the whole 2010...
Kinda like wasted a lot of time... but the greatest thing happened in 2010 is I Get t0 bE with mY DreamGirl!! MY BABY of course... (= Love her so so so much...

And because of her, now Am sleepless!! lol... wasn't wanna blame it on her.. just talking about it..
Cz Am wondering wondering and wondering... I got to plan ahead for 2011!!!
There's lots of thing I've already missed out this year!! gonna chase it back coming year!! not gonna waste my time doing nonsense and shitssssssssssss!

First, I Gonna Need Bunch of CASHHHHHHH for Our CNY!! FACE is very important... specially for my typical CINA relatives... gosh.....15k will do (=

Coming up gonna be tripsssssssssss!! she got hell lots of place wanna go!! Hehe (= and this time am not letting her go alone!! was killing me when she was in Japan )=
Am gonna have my first air flight with her!!! woohoo....
1st stop, i think it's gonna be a crazy cheap shopping heaven for clothesssss!! >>>> Bangkok !!
2nd stop, i think it's around our anniversary, am sure we gonna make it!! >>>> Taiwan !!
3rd stop, never the less, a place she love and misses the most!!  >>>> Japan !!

Baby, hereby am making my commitment to You and trust me... your 2011 is gonna be ur Craziest Shopping YEAR u ever have!!! wuahahaha....!!!! (((=
but with me alone, it;s impossible to make it, and soooo (=
please forgive me for being mad sometimes,
please chill me for being stress sometimes,
please calm me for being angry sometimes,
please "tahan" me for being Ignorance to u sometimes,
Because I'm thinking, doing, making thingssssss for Us to have what we wanted to have (-=
and i NEEDED YOU!!! specially MENTALLY supporting ME!!!!

Am gonna Give my BEST to u and for our Better and Brighter FUTURE!!!!
Am gonna Fight all the WAY, Just to see you smile and happily ever after (=



Fairy Tales exist when u DARE to Dream!!!!!
Dreams come true when u DARE to Believe!!!!!


ILOVEYOU, KarenKho
♥hubby


Sunday, December 26, 2010

7th Months of Being in Love witH My BaByyyy♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

yeAAh... itS exactly 7months already!! 7months ago, i got to be with herrrrrrrrrr, my love ♥ (=

hmmmmm... along the way, things didnt went through smooth and nice, but anyway, we managed to go through tough and rough obstacles and challenges, specially she did the most of thing to forgive my bad and helps me to become a better guy of being a better one not for her, but for myself.... she loved me more than anythings in the world.... she even gave up her family, her best friends, her studies, her career, her reputations and just everything about her life she let it go simply just to be with me!!

i wasnt a good guy before i met her in my life... she did changes me a lot... hehe
she teaches me to smile, even when am down (=
she teaches me to act cute, LOL...
she teaches me to be calm, even when am madly Angry (=
she teaches me to stay strong, when ever am gonna give up...
she teaches me to enjoy, even when am bored with stuff i dont like...
Most importantly, she teaches me about how to be sincere and appreciate myself before i should do that to others!!



this picture is exactly the same profile pic of her fbook when i added her and get to arouse her.. xoxo

Baby, life wasn't good to me, But you just made it better (=
Baby, it just took one hit of you now I'm addicted )=



And this is us after 7monthssssssss 
I wont gonna run away, Just wanna make your day, when you fell the world is on your shoulders (=
i Dont wanna make it worse, Just wanna make us work (=
Baby tell me i will do whatever!




What i wanna tell yea baby is, things change and time fliesssssss....
But my love to u will never ever gonna change forever!!
Deeply inside my heart i knew am totally into u and i dunno how can i live without u by my side!!
Just Simply "ILOVEYOU" from u will lighten up my entire life!! hehehehehe...
And am here, new born ME, heheehee... Am not looking for 7months or 7years....
AM Looking forward for my entire Whole Life is gonna be YOU, the One & Only!! 

See it was enough to know, if I ever let you go, I would be no one!
Cos I never thought I'd feel, all the things you made me feel, w
asn't looking for someone, NOT until YOU
Because, ILOVEYOU !!!!

Monday, December 20, 2010


woohoo... last day of waiting already (=
since i still can't get to sleep, so i decided to blog (=
I Miss My Baby damn a lot!! Till insomnia every days (=

hmmm... my bro sent me and ask me to listen to the song of 

Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon 

hmmm.. was not bad, but i decided to edit the lyrics specially for her and my current Mood!!

I know you're somewhere at Japan
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My Leaders think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Hmmmmm...

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to Twitter n Fbook
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to Twitter n Fbook

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the tweet
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the Tweet n Fbook
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the me alone

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away (=


hmmm.. kinda lame.. but just trying to do something now and wanna touch ur heart baby (=
its seriously feeling sooooooo lonely and helpless when i cant talk and cat contact u....
and i need u more than anything i want! I just want u back and give u a big tight HUG and kiss U!!

Baby, i never felt like this before, seriously i never been in this kinda situation till everyday insomnia just fucking thinking of someone! means, u are not someone in my heart, u are somebody who really meant to me in my life!! ILOVEYOU!!!!IFCUKINGLOVEU!!!!! and I MISS YA!! (=
really cant wait the moment meet each other (=
Hope everything gonna be great when we meet up (=
hope u miss me toooooooo (=

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Middle of the Night



Woke Up in the middle night , writing my blog with my girl by my side (=



Being damn emo recently..
Being damn stress recently..
Being damn bad tempered recently..
All because recently one shot happened so manyyyyyyyyyy kind of bad things to my life.. just dont know how to face it and over come it )=
Never thought of my family and the family business will go down till so bad and worst and the CO facing bankruptcy.... Gosh... So hard for me to face it = =
When i see my mum, i really dunno what can i do for her, i just can say that i'm doing great in my life so dont have to worry about me... Seriously i wanna help them, but i cant even take care of my own and how can i take care the whole family..... God please HELP me... please...

Luckily i still have her by my side, i couldn't stand without her... i love her so fucking much i can say!!
"Sorry i might hurt u a lot before, but i'm fucking gonna threw away all those shitty mess in my mind and in person and become a better one alright ? (="

Hmmmmmmmm... Looks like i'm gonna delay my dream for a moment and see what i can do for my family and for my love one first... 
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME!!! I"LL COME TO U ASAP!! BEFORE JUNE 2011!!!



(ps: I'll never gonna let u go if u never let me go; even u tried to go and i'll chase u till the end of the world!)
ILOVEYOU!

Sunday, November 28, 2010



GOOD MORNING!!
GOSH, is 8am in the morning and I didnt sleep for the night!!! Me and my baby decided dont wanna sleep!!
And both of us doing nothing but just online-ing in front on the PC =.= Lifeless!!
Since I got nothing to do.. so I Blog again !!
Just wonder of if some day i might addicted to blog because can spend sometime writing nonsense ((= HAHA!


SO GAY, BUT JUST FOR U !! ILOVEYOU BABY ((=

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I'm totally into U!!



Wondering wad to blog, i'm still very fresh in blogging.. sometimes i just can't understand why some people can blog everyday?? Lol..

Well, recently happened a lot a lot of things between us.. just like a roller-coaster Ride.. Up and Downs, Spinning and Turning.. Everything happened which almost tear us apart ))= and I almost lost u!!

But what i didn't expected is that you are still here for me !!
I might be selfish...
I might be bad...
I might be so unforgivable..
Yet you didn't walk away from me (yet)..

what i wanna let you know is, i'll never gonna let that day happen again!!
Never Ever FML and Never Ever gonna hurt you AGAIN!!

I don't give a damn for those Lifeless person out there who so "supportive", they were just so free to bitch about things yet doing nothing for their life.. OMG.. keep it up to give the "support", without you guys, i might not be able to stand at where i'm standing now !! Thank you, You Guys just make me better.. hahaha!!

I've made ToNsss of ppl drop their specs not just once, and once that hit them hard is i got you!!
I've made wonders and things i never did before!!
and of cz I can make it once again!!

Very simple reason just because of you are always here for me... And I love you!!
Yes, you might leave me if i'm still "Anson" ((=
But, when i'm back to find you, Its a BranD new ME!! hahaha!!

I'll never leave you no matter what happens in time!!
I'll never left go my hand not until i die!!
I'll never make you cry till your eyes are red and dry!!
I'll never stop fighting until i achieve and succeed in life!!

ALL BECAUSE I'm Totally iNto YoUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!
I Love You  = >

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Everything is WRONG

i just don't know am i doing the right things.. everything doesnt seems so good as u can see in ur eyes.. yet wad ever i did is still the same.. it still didnt make things right.. wad i can felt is things changed and it become worst, it just like nothing can make it right and fix it back, as in mirror cannot recover the prefect face after it broken..



mayb i'm wrong abt everything.. its not a good thing tat things move on too fast and too soon.. it will just end up bang to something and it will hurt alot.. and true enough, u bleed alot for me already.. and it doesnt feels right and good.. everything i assume last time is wrong, everything i think is ok is totally wrong.. i tot i understand u alot until i'm using "names" to different-shade u.. and yet i felt tat i'm not tat understand u only.. i dont even know wad u want now, wad u need now..



i'm doing all my best to give the best to u, my special one.. this reason didnt change and it will never change! yet it still heading to an end tat we both deeply know we are barely sustaining our relationship.. i'm so unconfident with our relationships now, everything we wanted last time, u dun have the desire for it anymore.. i'm being over and over sensitive, and over control on everything u do every since i lost my confident to u bcz i'm totally afraid of losing u.. is this wrong also??




alot of signs popping out from, i hate it tat i learned body language.. yes, mayb my reading are wrongs, yet words from ur month wont be wrong.. "regrets" its the most disappointed word i ever seen for u.. and its the worst WORD to say in a relationships.. i was like OMG when i see the word popping out from u.. and i never tot, i will ever tears in front of a stupid screen jz bcz of a simple word but i did!




so everything going on with me, around me, against me ARE WRONG? i'm totally fed up and totally fucked up! YES I AM TAT WRONG.. BUT this is ME.. i hate this i hate these i hated everything now.. so since everything is WRONG, i'll just let it be.. since things dont change even i'm trying to make it right yet end up like tat, fine... i dont have to do any cover line on wad ever i said here, just do wad ever fuck shit u think is right! i'm ready to accept anything from u even i have to face things like ur ex did faced..





A marriage to me is never a joke, i take it seriously and i do mean it and i never REGRETS anything bcz meeting u, having u, loving u, THOU EVERYTHING ARE WRONG, but these are the BEST THING TAT HAPPENED TO ME IN MY LIFE!

Well, wad i can say is, this engagement relationship to me, is like plants will grow according the bright side, river flow through sand and rocks, so i'll just let it be, i'll let our relationship grow naturally, flow smoothly, heading to the bright side of our future.. lot of things i realize, the more i care, the worst it gets..



WHATEVER HAPPENED WRONG IS WRONG
~SO JUST LET IT BE~
THERE'S NO TURNING BACK IN LIFE
~SO JUST LET IT FLOW~




I believed, I CAN...
I believed, there's always a Bright tside in a wrong way..
I believed, what i see in dream is wrong..
BECAUSE I BELIEVED, making dreams come true,
is the best thing to prove 
EVERYTHING IS WRONG!


To My Special Love, Karen