mayb i'm wrong abt everything.. its not a good thing tat things move on too fast and too soon.. it will just end up bang to something and it will hurt alot.. and true enough, u bleed alot for me already.. and it doesnt feels right and good.. everything i assume last time is wrong, everything i think is ok is totally wrong.. i tot i understand u alot until i'm using "names" to different-shade u.. and yet i felt tat i'm not tat understand u only.. i dont even know wad u want now, wad u need now..
i'm doing all my best to give the best to u, my special one.. this reason didnt change and it will never change! yet it still heading to an end tat we both deeply know we are barely sustaining our relationship.. i'm so unconfident with our relationships now, everything we wanted last time, u dun have the desire for it anymore.. i'm being over and over sensitive, and over control on everything u do every since i lost my confident to u bcz i'm totally afraid of losing u.. is this wrong also??
alot of signs popping out from, i hate it tat i learned body language.. yes, mayb my reading are wrongs, yet words from ur month wont be wrong.. "regrets" its the most disappointed word i ever seen for u.. and its the worst WORD to say in a relationships.. i was like OMG when i see the word popping out from u.. and i never tot, i will ever tears in front of a stupid screen jz bcz of a simple word but i did!
so everything going on with me, around me, against me ARE WRONG? i'm totally fed up and totally fucked up! YES I AM TAT WRONG.. BUT this is ME.. i hate this i hate these i hated everything now.. so since everything is WRONG, i'll just let it be.. since things dont change even i'm trying to make it right yet end up like tat, fine... i dont have to do any cover line on wad ever i said here, just do wad ever fuck shit u think is right! i'm ready to accept anything from u even i have to face things like ur ex did faced..
A marriage to me is never a joke, i take it seriously and i do mean it and i never REGRETS anything bcz meeting u, having u, loving u, THOU EVERYTHING ARE WRONG, but these are the BEST THING TAT HAPPENED TO ME IN MY LIFE!
Well, wad i can say is, this engagement relationship to me, is like plants will grow according the bright side, river flow through sand and rocks, so i'll just let it be, i'll let our relationship grow naturally, flow smoothly, heading to the bright side of our future.. lot of things i realize, the more i care, the worst it gets..
WHATEVER HAPPENED WRONG IS WRONG
~SO JUST LET IT BE~
THERE'S NO TURNING BACK IN LIFE
~SO JUST LET IT FLOW~
I believed, I CAN...
I believed, there's always a Bright tside in a wrong way..
I believed, what i see in dream is wrong..
BECAUSE I BELIEVED, making dreams come true,
is the best thing to prove
EVERYTHING IS WRONG!
To My Special Love, Karen
